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[20 May 2005|01:02am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | BANE - one for the boys ] sweet, i just watched 4 hours of season finale's. we taped the OCm watched 2 hour CSI final... which was directed by TARANTINO. i could DEFINATELY see his influence.. he hyped up the dialogue a lot, and added a few twisted scenes that im sure never would have happened normally. but yeah the show was awesome. then ER, which was dr. carter's last show. yeah then we watched the OC, which was pretty insane. im hungry for next season. got home from mels and im 20 now. it doesnt feel much different, other than i finally got rid of that pesky '1' in my age. he'll be back next year though, on the other side, where he belongs. golfing on saturday, leaving sunday for a good 12 days. it should be fun. UHHG!

[16 May 2005|12:23am] [ mood | busy ] [ music | codeseven- sunflower ] just got back from wyoming. well, lets see. i came home tuesday. my great grandpa died wednesday, we drove out there friday, funeral was saturday, drove home today. and next sunday we are going back to wyoming for vacation. so its been a crazy week. tomorrow i have a doctor appt. dentist later this week. oh yeah im turning 20 on friday, so that should be cool. UHHG!

[05 May 2005|01:16am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | MLIW- new stuff ] this year is so close to being over... i finished my house project today, we are setting it up at the mall tomorrow night, should be good times. new modern life is war is AMAZING.. i cant wait till it comes out, i will pick it up ASAP. i miss friends at home, i will see you soon. UHHG!

[19 Apr 2005|11:28pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | hatebreed - we still fight ] im ready to go home for summer... but i still have 3 weeks. right now im workin on my project for studio, which is a cool house. im designing kinda in a mexican-colonial-southwestern mixture of aesthetics, with a spiritual, organic feel to the design. mexican culture in general is very religious and i want to subtley give the home owner a religious experience when they are at home. all my other classes just seem distant right now.. the only thing i really think about right now is studio, and maybe architecture history, because that class is semi related to my studio in that i am influenced by the architects we study. when i get home im painting my room. probably an earthy brown, but i was also thinking a faded green tint. who knows. i <3 Melissa UHHG!

oh yeah... [11 Apr 2005|12:09am] ive been reading this book called "the screwtape letters" its really cool.. its about this demon writing to his nephew who is supposed to secure the damnation of this young guys soul. its hilarious and insightful. its giving me things to look at in my own life, as well as ways i can open other people's eyes to the reality of this constant battle between the legions of Heaven and Hell... UHHG!

[11 Apr 2005|12:04am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | opeth - in my time of need ] we got our new project in studio, im sorry ive been super lazy about posting pics from my last assignment... but anyway we have to design a house for this neighboorhood in west fargo, total rich family, every-house-looks-exactly-alike neighboorhood.. but we have to design "unique" houses... anyway, i sound sarcastic and cynical, but im stoked on this project.. we finally get a simple project where we can adequately design all the elements with enough attention to the details. so this project is kinda sponsored by some housing develpoment company and is going to award cash prizes to the top winners of popular votes.. they will be on display at our mall, west acres the first week of may. so this project could win me some money! but yeah ive always wanted to do a really cool house design.. all ive ever done is floor plans, which get old and uncreative.. this way i can do exterior facades, structural elements, interior spaces... oh man its gonna be great. this weekend im going home and i cant wait. i miss home already, i want it to be summer so i can go our west on our vacation to wyoming. we are taking mel to yellowstone before it errupts!!!! exciting.. yeah, and just having the weight of school lifted off me for a few months will be unbelievable.. just relaxing, working, nad having fun with friends. UHHG!

Lord send your spirit [01 Apr 2005|04:09pm] [ mood | peaceful ] the pope is dying, this makes me sad, but at the same time, his time has come to enter the kingdom of God, and oh how wonderful that is! It's sad that he has to suffer so much through parkinsons, and i said a prayer for him today, that the Lord might bless his soul and bring him straight to heaven. If you feel inclined i urge you to pray for the pope, that his suffering would end and the Lord would take him to heaven where he will live forever in peace... 2 echos|UHHG!

[31 Mar 2005|07:46am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | bury your dead - the outsiders ] so easter was cool, good friday was a humbling experience. i decided on my own that i would try to fast on friday.. me, mel , mom and grandma went shopping.. the 3 of them got hungry so we went to CPK to eat, and i watched them eat. it was tough, but i got stronger and it felt good to fast. i broke the fast after good friday mass. went to mels place for dinner on saturday, her family was there and it was ok. sunday i had easter at my aunts which was fun. monday me and mel walked to target from my house cuz it was soooo warm, like 66. it was nice... drove back to fargo and i spent most of the night in studio. then tuesday i spent ALL night in studio and finished my project which i reveiwed yesterday. yeah, staying up all night: not so bad... but staying up all night and trying to be normal the next day: HORRIBLE! i ended up crashing on mels bed and skipping the rest of my classes.. she woke me up for work which wasnt so bad, after i ate some food i had more energy. PICTURES WILL BE COMING SOON. UHHG!

i have seeeen the others, and i have discovered, that this fight is not worth fighting... [18 Mar 2005|10:17am] [ mood | pleased ] [ music | dispatch - the general ] wow spring break has been busy so far.. first me and mel travelled to duluth, will have pictures when i get un-lazy.. duluth was awesome, had plenty of good times. came home monday, dinner at mels house, then home. tuesday i hung out with mike after i took a drug test for target... this summer = $13/hr at target. wednesday was cool, mel came over after her appmt and we went shoppin with mom. got some nice dress clothes for work. then we went to her place and ate dinner and watched a movie with erika. yesterday was laid back. went to lunch with dad and my godfather and his son eric. the KFAN restaraunt, i had some pizza. after that i pretty much sat on the comp all day. went to the REGRET show (jasons new band) and watched them rock out, watched a life without, and watched blacklisted, which i am now a big fan! they rocked. today im lookin for suits, tomorrow groceries and dinner with mel, sunday church and back to fargo, guh.. i wish i could stay home :( btw, you all should check out the new rammstein video for the song "keine lust" its frickin hilarious! hers a shot: UHHG!

[11 Mar 2005|08:22am] [ mood | sleepy ] today is the last day before spring break. i have studio, then digital software class, then its off to duluth for the weekend. movies i want to see that are coming up: star wars episode III (saw the trailer last night) sin city (co-directed by QT) thats all for now. UHHG!

[05 Mar 2005|01:40pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | the mars volta - cassandra gemini III ] still waiting for spring. yesterday i spent a good 9 hours in studio... i had studio session from 9am-12, and class at 2, but instead of going to class at 2, i just stayed in studio till 3. then i went back to the dorm and chilled for a while, me and mel went to the kights of columbus fish fry at newman center, GOOD FISH... then we both went to my studio for 3 more hours. pretty cool. today mels dad, stepmom, and little brothers are comin up, should be fun times. its warm today but will it last? i really want spring to come. UHHG!

[25 Feb 2005|12:53am] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | the killers - midnight show ] yesterday it snowed again.. it was kinda nice, but at the same time i wish it would just be spring already. i came as close as you get to a car accident today. me and melissa were talking in the car, we were driving in the left lane and there were lots of cars in the right lane. so i look over telling her somthing and she goes "kyle!" and look ahead and theres a car pulling out of a gas station. poking through the line of cars in the right lane. i hit the breaks and swerve left and miss it. for some reason stuff like this doesnt affect me the way it should. ive been in so many near-crashes and every time i shake it off like it was nothing, its weird. i get worked up over an abandoned car thinking its a cop and i am unphased by just barely escaping an accident. it makes me think how easily my life could totally change and become complicated just like that.. i mean my life is complicated, but for the most part, the Lord has given me a pretty easy setup.. i never once seriously debated what i wanted to do in life, or what i wanted to study in college, i had it figured out in 8th grade.. i never had a serious girlfriend till Melissa and i could marry her in a heartbeat.. my family is still together, we arent perfect but we have a our moments. i dont have drama with my friends, ive been healthy so far.. there are just so many blessings its hard to appreciate them sometimes, and if one of those things was taken away or changed, my life would completley change... at this point im just glad the Lord has let me have all these things, even though a change would most likely result in me becoming more faithful to Him. thats my philosophy for tonight. i am tired now, so im going to bed 1 echo|UHHG!

[17 Feb 2005|11:57pm] [ mood | calm ] its about time i update again huh... so life in fargo is ok.. i still enjoy studio a lot, even though its a TON more work this semester.. i just took two tests today and im not sure how well i did on them. actually i know i got a C on the computer science test. stupid multiple choice. im excited for my jazz concert. we are doin some really cool songs and i love playing them. i need spring to come. it cant do this to me.. it was 40 degrees a couple weeks ago, and now it just shuts me down with below zero temps.. i just want 40s again! spring break is coming up, itll be awesome to go home again and be with my friends, all that kinda stuff. i owe melissa big time, shes paid for a couple dinners lately, including our date for valientines day (it was a day early).. so yeah, i owe her a couple meals! so far our lent stuff has been going well. ive been handling the no meat thing ok, i miss meat! and weve been praying every night so far. i think its really good for us to pray together, its a good way for us to share our faith together and honor the Lord at the same time. i hope this keeps going after lent too.. tonight as i was praying i just imagined us married and before we go to bed we would pray together.. it would be so nice! someday.. time for bed, check out this cute pic of us: UHHG!

remember you are dust and to dust you shall return... [10 Feb 2005|10:19am] [ mood | weird ] [ music | dragonforce - prepare for war ] so its lent, and im giving up meat.. its gonna be haaarrrrrd, but definately worth it. i can use it as a reminder of what Jesus did for us on the cross, and in turn focus more on my relationship with Him. last night me and mel went to church for ash wednesday, and after that we sat in her room and prayed the rosary, its the first time weve really done that, and the first time weve kinda prayed together, it was fun and we are planning to do this every night for lent. im excited! my studio project is now finished and i am so tired. i got up for class this morning and didnt even shower.. i was falling asleep in class, came back and slept for an hour.. i had this weird dream that i was at college/work/high school.. it could have been all 3 at any point. first i thought it was a college class, we were walking through this building or somthing and there was a professor, and a guest.. for some reason i kept sliding around the floor, especially the auditorium, and the professor and the guest were really annoyed by it i guess so they yelled at me and talked to down to me like i was some disruptive high schooler, i was obviously pissed off.. so later on im in this cafeteria with a friend, which seemed like high school, and some kids were talking about something, then a police officer walked up and told them "not to talk about the boy who shot those people at school" which for some reason in my dream i remembered that happening.. weird. then i was in an office area.. and i got an email reminder to go to an "effective behavior" seminar.. which i assumed was scheduled by those two professors who thought i was disruptive.. i got mad and then i heard my roommates alarm clock, but i thought it was the clock on the wall in my dream, and i wanted to rip the arms of and throw it across the room.. but instead i just woke up. UHHG!

[05 Feb 2005|01:34am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | the cure - fascination street ] this week has been insane.. i spent about 25-30 hours in studio working on our design project that was due monday, but now is due wednesday.. last night i spent 4 hours on this, and like 5 minutes doctoring it in photoshop, thanks to my bro: ill post a pic of the 3d model later when i take its picture.. im messing around on Autodesk to try and get a good digital version of it, but basically its a preschool/elementary school and or recreational facility.. we all picked one of 3 sites to put it on the NDSU campus and designed this thing. so far i really like mine, just not how much work ive had to put into it. a lot of this stuff is hard to do on autocadd but im figuring it out slowly. this weekend i am home, it feels not as good as i had hoped so far. i cant find any headphones for my cd player so i can exchange it for a new one at best buy... anyone have sony headphones they can give to me? hehe UHHG!

[31 Jan 2005|12:08am] [ mood | content ] [ music | roommate is listening to gnr.. not my thing, but whatev ] today was pretty cool.. slept in a little bit since me and mel decided to go to church later this eve.. yeah so we went over to the DC for brunch, i made us egg sandwiches and i got a chicken patty, good stuff. but yeah we noticed the menu for dinner. PASTA BAR.. two different noodles, 3 sauces.. oh man! crazy since we just ate at olive garden yesterday, rock on. yeah we got back and decided to pop in her OC dvd.. we blew through the first 3 episodes before finally getting off our butts to go work out. we did that and then got ready for church and off to church we went, then off to DINNER, which was amazing, and then we drove to wal-mart to get a few things. after that we hung in her room watching more OC. the OC is addicting.. i forgot how addicting it was since we missed half of this new season, but dang, starting from the beginning which ive never seen, its just been crazy addicting.. but yeah its now become a distraction from homework.. which at the moment i dont care about, but its going to hit me later, crap. im excited to go home this weekend, its been a while so yeah.. see some friends and be at home again, should be nice. my studio project is coming along nicely.. hopefully i can get some stuff done this week since its SUPPOSED to be due next monday the 7th. wow thats gonna be brutal.. several drawings, a model.. prolly some other stuff, has to be completed.. im not looking forward to that much work in one week. UHHG!

[25 Jan 2005|11:15pm] [ mood | stressed ] man, school has started becoming more a part of my life.. its weird, last semester, TV was about 80% of my free time.. and now lately, homework/reading is about that much. its not so bad except for one class. design methods.. this class is 3 credits, yet the teacher dishes out assignments like its 5 credits.. its insane the amount of work she expects us to do i think.. it doesnt seem so bad at first, but the work is hidden.. like this: we will be quizzed on the architects in one of our textbook. there are about 150-200 in the whole book, so we are taking sections at a time. the first 25, AND a building they did, AND where it is located will be quizzed next week. we have to write down all three elements of each archiect without promting (i suppose she said there would be small clues) but still.. we have to have 75 pieces of information just sitting around in our brains and then puke it up onto a piece of paper. then 75 more in a week.. its nuts. one of the textbooks shes having us read straight through, the most boring thing ive ever read.. my studio teacher is of middle-eastern decent, and i cant understand him most of the time. i feel bad because i know its hard for anyone to speak a second language perfectly, but at the same time i wish they would have made sure he could communicate effectively with students, and i feel like has trouble with that. last semester barnhouse was awesome, so maybe im just used to having that great communication with him and this is how it usually is. i dont feel like im going to get as much feedback and response from this new guy as i want. blah, so yeah.. this saturday me and melissa might be going to olive garden with her friend from high school and her fiance. it sounds like fun, and i guess they invited us to a murder mystery type deal, sounds interesting. i cant wait to go home for a weekend and chill with all my peoples! UHHG!

[20 Jan 2005|11:30pm] [ mood | loved ] soo yeah pretty much i love my melissa, and she is going to be mine forever someday... 2 echos|UHHG!

[18 Jan 2005|11:49pm] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | bury your dead - risky business ] so i just downloaded the BYD cd... its fun! hah i like the color of money right now cuz the video is fun times. speaking of fun times: http://media.ebaumsworld.com/index.php?e=technopenguin.wmv yeay! yeah stuff. UHHG!

[17 Jan 2005|09:53am] [ mood | dorky ] woa so yesterday, around noon the power went out.. but only some of it went out, it was weird.. then all the sudden the RA's run around telling everyone to get out of the building cuz it could blow. turns out the transformer started on fire, which is like the main generator for everything in the dorm. electricity, heat, water.. yeah, so it took them like all day to fix it, it could have been dangerous, there was smoke everywhere on the main floor and it smelled horrible. me mel and some friends went to stephs place to watch football while they fixed our building up, then me and mel went to church and back to her room where we watched return of the king. and that was my day, crazy! 2 echos|UHHG!

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